Month: July 2014

Be Faithful, Not Fearful

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My Aunt Susan called me two weeks ago about a personal matter. In the middle of the call she congratulated me on some of the major changes happening in my life. She then said,  “ Donna I wish I had courage like you!” “I have been living in the same place for 30 years and although I hate it here, I am comfortable.” She went on to say that she has never been able to muster up the courage to leave her home due to her fear of stepping outside of her comfort zone.

I was so shocked that my aunt thought that I was courageous! For those of you who do not know, I am moving out of state and I am starting a new job! I have always wanted to live in New York City. I love the energy, the lights, and the fantasy that all dreams come true in NYC- and now I am actually going to do it!  None of these changes have happened without crippling fear, anxiety and wondering if I am making the right choice.  I have not allowed fear, however, to be a major part of my equation. I made a conscience decision to place faith where fear normally is, and the results have been amazing!

Faith vs Fear

I guess I am courageous to leave a job I love, a beautiful home in a great neighborhood and all that I know… to venture off to explore an idea or a dream. But I made the decision to be faithful and not fearful. This decision has opened my eyes to new possibilities and a desire to follow the unknown.

I want my daughters to be adventurous and to explore the world without being afraid to uproot their lives and try something new. I want them at any age to understand that they can reinvent themselves!

I thought, if I do not follow my dreams of moving and creating a new path …when will I take the leap? I constantly remind myself that there is no perfect time or situation.

What I have discovered about making decisions based on faith; is that life is so much more exciting and the flow brings much more joy and fulfillment! I still struggle with fear but it doesn’t control me.

The Litany Against Fear

When my 10 year old, Kennedy, was learning to ride her bike she was afraid to fall and my friend taught her The Litany Against Fear. It is powerful and it provides comfort when fear tries to creep inside your mind.

“I must not fear, fear is the mind killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing…only I will remain.”

Final Thought

Consider “walking by faith… not by sight”, the greatest of men and women have changed the world by being faithful.

References

The Litany Against Fear: http://alcoman.railfan.net/fear.html

Be careful not to lose yourself, while raising your children

imagesAs a mother, it is a challenge to see myself outside the scope of a parent. I almost cannot remember my life without my daughters.  It seems as if I have been raising children my entire life!  I love my daughters and I want to provide them with the very best experiences, opportunities and lessons but sometimes I ask myself:  “Can I be an excellent mother and still be true to myself ?”

Reflection 

I vividly remember the day I was thinking of going back to school to obtain my master’s degree. I had a job that I loved but I felt the urge to do something more. I thought about it long and hard and finally mustered the courage to apply to a graduate program and was accepted to my school of choice! I was elated. I made the announcement and I will never forget the response I received: “Go back to school! What about Alleea?” At the time Alleea was six years old and I factored in how I would raise her and attend school. The backlash continued and I soon reconsidered going back to school. I worried and wondered if I was being selfish and if my choice would have a negative impact on my daughter.

That was sixteen years ago and I have had to make thousands of similar decisions. Each time I would try to maintain a unique balance of being true to myself and being a great mother.

Three Tips 

There are three things that I would contemplate that helped me make these decisions.  Maybe these three things can help you as you balance your personal growth and raise your daughters.

1. “To Thine own self be true.” In order for me to be a great mother I have to feel as if I am growing and expanding who I am as an individual. If you are wondering if I went back to school when Alleea was six the answer is “Yes!” I couldn’t control the urge to grow. In order to maintain a balance I did not move out of state instead I commuted to school and kept my daughter’s life as “uninterrupted” as possible. In essence I compromised the full experience but still stayed true to myself.

2.  Am I Leading by example? Our daughters are always watching us. They learn our sayings, our habits and ultimately they are learning how to parent in the future.  When we are confident and take chances we teach our daughters to be bold and dynamic.  Our growth is their growth, so do not be afraid to take a leap!

3. Me time..time to ponder. My daughters know that I require “me time.” My nine year old daughter Kennedy came to me recently with a story about her friend from Girl Scouts.

“You know Jennifer’s mom is the leader for girl scouts and she is AlWAYS there, and  today for the first time  Jennifer’s mom had something else to do,” Kennedy expanded. “Jennifer complained the entire time that her mom wasn’t there and even cried during our troop meeting.”

She looked at me and said, “I feel bad for Jennifer’s mom because she needs time for herself too.”  I was shocked! Kennedy expressed exactly the way I would like her to respond when she becomes a mother. I would like her to know the value of “me time.” Although I do not get a lot of “Me time” I do appreciate that my daughters understand the value of self reflection, meditation and honoring time to self discover.

Final thought 

I would like to leave you with one last thought…before you became a mother you were a girl with a dream. Balance your dreams and motherhood, and see your life flourish.