imagesMy mother called me two days ago to provide me with some unsolicited advice about a sensitive subject. After she was finished, and after we said our goodbyes, my mother’s unsolicited advice and her resolute voice resonated in my head. “Donna this is what you should do,”… She believes that she is always armed with “the right “decision to make on any topic imaginable.  Despite my own original thought about a subject matter. A strong sense of satisfying my mother’s desires takes hold of me and makes me second- guess my own personal choices. I notice this especially concerning decisions which I have not successfully navigated in the past.  She uses the same technique and it works every time!

Expectations

Growing up my parents were very clear in voicing their expectations of me. I tried my best to obey their wishes. My mother was very good at quoting scripture.  If I gave her any creative ways not to meet her expectations she would say, “Donna remember what the bible says,  Honor thy mother and father so your days will be longer.”   Wanting to be a dutiful and respectful daughter, of course I listened after that, as I didn’t want to let down my mother and God.  I also thought that I wouldn’t mind a few extra days to live!

I’m not alone 

Driving in the car with my good friend two weeks ago, who is also in her forties, she shared her desire to start a family, but she is divorced and has no immediate prospects for a husband. We spoke about non-traditional methods of having a baby and her first and very adamant response was, “I don’t want to let my mother down.”  She continued to speak, sharing that her mother’s desire was the reason why she married quickly and she didn’t co-habitat first. My friend is convinced that if she cohabited with him, she would have not gotten married and her life may be different now. Even armed with the failure of her marriage, her mother’s expectations still hold sway over her and prevents her from making her own decisions.

Hearing your own voice 

At this age, and past the age of twenty-five for that matter, your brain has matured to a point where making decisions should include the full scope of abstract and complex thinking. You should always consider the voice of your mother, but you should pay special attention to your inner voice, your needs, your desires and your dreams.

Learn to trust yourself… because that is where true happiness resides.